Since I changed my anti depressants 4 days ago I’ve felt pretty crappy. I’ve been dry heaving in the mornings and I’m unable to eat much without feeling full straight away, or without gagging at the thought of food. I’m also struggling to go out because my anxiety is through the roof.
I’ve been carrying on with life as normal but the change over from mirtazapine to citalopram has been horrible. I keep panicking when I’m out of the house. I went into town to get my nail fixed on Saturday and when I was in the car I was sighing a lot because I was struggling to get enough air in and out of my lungs and I noticed my leg doing the annoying nervous twitching.
I could stand to be in the nail shop as I was only in there for around 10-15 minutes. We went over the road to get some food afterwards and about 20 minutes later I had to leave. I felt like I couldn’t eat and I wanted to speak but I couldn’t get my words out.
I was supposed to go to the gym too but I was far too anxious. Luke (my not bf but bf to be) was really understanding and got me a blanket to sit downstairs, he put Netflix on the tv in the kitchen and lit a diffuser whilst he cooked his meals ready for his night shift. A quick PSA if you haven’t watched squid game on Netflix – watch it!
Today I need to go out of the house to get fuel and also to nip to the post office. I haven’t started my new job as of yet (thankfully) but will be starting soon. I’m kind of relieved because it gives me time to settle in to uni and get used to my new meds. I’m wanting to go to the gym later but I’ll see how I’m feeling. Mum said I’ll probably feel like this for 7-10 days so I’m hoping it passes soon.
On the up side though, I’ve noticed I’m feeling a lot less fatigued already. For the past two days I’ve been waking up around 8-9am with quite a lot of energy, as opposed to the usual 11/12pm waking up exhausted. So fingers crossed this one mixes with me better.
Love & hugs,
Abby x
Unapologetically Abby 
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